Leaning Into Whispers

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Leaning Into Whispers

By Susie Teramura

Flipping through Instagram

I stop to see

She has a

New book

Coming soon.

A new message

To share,

From God’s heart

To mine.

My face breaks

Into a smile

“I cannot wait,”

I whisper to myself,

Hungry for more

Whitespace,

More rest.

There is

More of

Jesus there.

Book arrives

Packaged in hard

Brown cardboard,

Ripping it open,

I rub my hand

Across the cover, slow.

I leaf through

Brand new pages

And read the title

Again,

“Whispers of Rest”

by Bonnie Gray

Letting it

Sink in,

I say it once more

Like a big exhale.

Oh how badly

I need rest.

What a week

It has been,

The irony sets in;

With MRI scans

Blood draws,

Three Dr visits,

College kids

Filling the rooms and

Laundry basket again,

New puppy accidents,

ADHD creating havoc

On test day,

Leaky pipes,

Sagging ceilings, falling

On the leather couches,

The surprises

Keep coming,

So I keep coping,

And I realize that

Rest is a stranger to me,

Or at most, an unacquainted

Very distant relative.

But with book in hand

I have hope.

Bonnie will show

Me the way.

She has traveled

The road,

And is calling back

To my heart

Encouraging me

To rest,

For good things

Are found there.

She writes,

“Be the Beloved”

And tells me

He wants my heart.

That He has

Beautiful things

To give me and to

Give others

Through me.

She says He is

Inviting me to

A new way

Of living,

A way of living

Loved

No strings attached

Then she says

He has

A new name

For me and

That I am

His delight.

And as I read

It’s like I am

Having coffee

With a friend

Who keeps looking me

In the eye

And saying it

Over and over in

A number of different ways,

That I am loved,

And I can rest.

Problem is that

I can’t seem to

Return the gaze,

My face keeps

Looking down.

It feels

More comfortable there,

In the unbelief.

Something about

The embracing of it all,

This extravagant love,

Feels scary

It feels unfamiliar.

But I hear a

Freedom in her voice

And I want it.

And there’s closeness
with Jesus

That stretches my own

And I find myself craving that.

To just be loved

And feel myself

Beloved.

And so I’ve decided to

Say yes

To the invitation

To take the risk

To be ok with

Uncomfortable,

Because maybe, just maybe,

There is a better way.

A way that’s waiting

For me to step into,

A path lined with

Wild violets and

Carpeted with moss,

That’s been there all along but

That my eyes

Are just beginning

To make out.

So I will lean

Into the whispers

That tell me to rest,

And that say

The real work is done.

And then as

The trees bow low

To the breezes that

Touch my cheeks

I will sit

Face to face

With Jesus

Until the quiet becomes

Comfortable,

And His voice, familiar.

And His song

Becomes my own,

And I know

In the secret place

I am His

Beloved.

Psalm 18:19

He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me.

Bonnie Gray’s new book Whispers’s of love comes out today!! It is so good! I highly recommend it! http://www.whispersofrest.com

14 thoughts on “Leaning Into Whispers

  1. Oh, Susie, you need to know that the way you felt about her new book is how I feel when I see a post from you – can’t wait to read it, knowing there will be peace flowing from it and a quieting my heart needs. This was beautiful as always and I will check out Bonnie’s book 🙂

    1. Hi Paris! 🙂 So great to hear from you! 🙂 That is so nice of you! Your comment really encouraged my heart and made my day. It is a great book! I hope you can read it and find rest too! 🙂 xox

  2. Hi Susie,
    I love the photo of the book! (I haven’t gotten my copy yet but I’m on the launch team too! 🙂 You have had a pile of disturbances recently that are out to rob your soul of rest, but I have to believe your efforts to continue to seek God throughout them is what will eventually lead you to a new season of rest — maybe not as you imagined but maybe rest despite the turbulence! And I’m happy that the book launch has brought you back to post — since I so miss you when you’re silent in your little online space! Much love to you and hoping repairs and health rejuvenation are on the slate for your summer season! xoxox

    1. Hi Valerie-:) So great to hear from you! I have really missed being able to write and connecting with you -How fun to be on the launch team together! ( I had trouble accessing the online version of the book- never was able to and my copy just arrived a few days ago. – I hope yours comes soon!!!) have never been on a launch team:) It has been fun! 🙂 It has been one thing on top of another- Some seasons are like that I find don’t you?- It becomes almost laughable- it’s either that or cry!! Anyway thanks for your kind thoughts. I hope you are doing well and finding rest! l 🙂 with much love xo

  3. I love how you introduce Bonnie’s new book, Susie. Your feelings resonate in my heart. I’m glad you found time to share this in the midst of all the upsets going on. May we together believe we are the beloved and answer yes to His invitation of rest! Love and hugs to you!

  4. Hi Trudy! 🙂 so great to connect with you this week! i am thankful that you understand my feelings. I am gratefuI was able to write. Thanks for being a fellow journeyer with me!! It comforts me to have friends on the trail to help keep me going and hold me up when things are falling apart! sending hugs tonight!

  5. I love your picture and the way you shared your thoughts on this book. I am on the launch team too and I really appreciated how the book encouraged me to take time to be still and remember God’s love. I think that’s something we always need to be reminded of.

    1. Hi Lesley, Thanks so much for visiting me today! How great that you are on the launch team too! So nice to meet you! Yes I too definitely need daily reminders to stop and receive His love and just be there in it with Him! Need to fill up each day!! With much love ❤️

  6. As always, your words touch my heart.It sounds rather silly, but I feel like I raced through the book to complete all the launch assignments: hopeful some days, downcast others, I finished today.
    Now I’m looking forward to the book club, the slow restful pace.

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