What I Know

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What I  Know

By Susie Teramura

 

 Dog lays sick,

Not eating still,

Becoming skin and bones.

We pet her tired head.

With big sad eyes,

8 year old asks,

 

“Mama, is she going to die?”

And I look down,

Not sure how to

Answer this question,

 As I am really

Not sure, but

In my heart I know

It’s not looking good.

 

But another part of me holds out

For hope and miracles

And for 11 year old dogs

To act young again.

 

So I pull her up

On to my lap and

Say what I can,

 

“I don’t know.”

 

And these words start

Rolling around in my head,

And all

The uncertainties

Of the day

Come rumbling in  

Like big thunderclouds.

 

The “I don’t knows,”

Hanging heavy,

 Ready to pour

Rain on my day,

 

But her eyes

Keep looking

At mine,

Searching

For something to hang

Her hat on,

Something

To help her

Push this worry away,

 

And so I say,

Talking to her and

To my own soul,

That so desperately needs

A talking to.

 

“When I am stuck in a

‘Don’t know’

I start thinking,

And counting,

The things

I do know.”

 

And so we started counting,

And naming,

The things

We do know,

What you have

Told us

In Your word.

 

You are good,

And faithful.

You will never leave

Us alone and

Will be there when

We are sad.

 

You will wipe

Our tears away,

And hide us in

Your love until

The storm passes.

 

You have a plan and

Purpose for us that is good.

You are in control,

And we are held,

And helped,

And taught,

And completely cared for.

 

We know that

In this world

We will have trouble,

And sorrow

And heartache

And pain.

 

Things break,

And fall apart,

And die.

 

But You will make

All things new,

And right.

 

And so,

The best is

Yet to come.

You are re – storying us.

You never get tired or old,

You are perfect and

Your plans are

Perfect too,

 

And the list went on,

And on,

Pushing that thunderhead

On its way,

Making space for

Sunshine and light

Warmth and life.

 

We give the dog one more

Scratch behind

 The ears,

And say goodnight,

Knowing we are

Loved

And held tight.

 

 

Jeremiah 29:11

I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.

 

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

 So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.

 

Revelation 21:3-5

I heard a voice thunder from the Throne: “Look! Look! God has moved into the neighborhood, making his home with men and women! They’re his people, he’s their God. He’ll wipe every tear from their eyes. Death is gone for good—tears gone, crying gone, pain gone—all the first order of things gone.” The Enthroned continued, “Look! I’m making everything new.

 

 

 

 

 

11 thoughts on “What I Know

  1. The picture of your sweet pooch drew me as we have a treasured dog of our own. But your poignant post keep me reading with tears in my eyes and my heart singing. We have been facing some life altering serious issues at our house. The way isn’t clear for the future but the old song “It will be worth it all when we see Jesus” has been spinning in my mind and heart. I’m in that “I don’t know” stage but thanks for the reminder what I do know – God is good all the time. Blessings.

    1. Hi Rebecca- I am so thankful that you stopped by. Dogs are amazing friends aren’t they?! We found out the day after I wrote this that she has cancer and we won’t have her much longer. 😦 😦 😦 —I am so sorry that you are in an “I don’t know stage” as I get how hard it is! and how everything in me wants to know and things to feel safe and settled. I am learning as long as I know Him, I will always have a place to settle and feel safe no matter what is going on around me. I am so thankful for that. sending a prayer for peace in the midst of the unknown and a hug tonight .

  2. It’s so good to be able to read a poem of yours again, Susie! I’m so sorry about your dog. He looks so sad. Does he have a sickness or is he just old? I hope he’s not in pain. I love how you focused on what you know according to God’s Truth, both for your daughter and yourself. I need to remember to do that more when the “I don’t knows” taunt me. And the picture you paint of how that Truth pushes that thunderhead on its way and makes space for “sunshine and light, warmth and life” is priceless. Thank you for this encouragement, also in the verses you selected. We’re not giving up, right?! God is not going to abandon us! He will take care of us! Love and hugs to you!

    P.S. Are you still taking painting classes? I miss those photos. 🙂

    1. Hi Trudy- The day after I wrote this we found out she has cancer and won’t be with us much longer. We are heartbroken and going through a sad time-trying to enjoy the days we have left. I have found myself in many situations lately where I just don’t know and have no idea what the outcome will be. This messes with my sense of safety. Slowly learning He is my safety and I can rest in Him. I am still working on my flower painting. (The big huge one.) I hope I can show you something next week- good or bad it helps me to post – Just to get used to sharing my work and helps push me to make time to work on them. Thanks for always encouraging me Trudy! xoxo

      1. I was afraid that’s what was wrong with Maggie. Praying God will help all of you through the grief. I’m with you on “Slowly learning He is my safety and I can rest in Him.” Big hugs!

  3. Susie,
    This was such a sweet and heartfelt post about your family’s beloved dog! But I loved your strategy with your daughter — which is so good for all of us — when we don’t know the future or are concerned or worried, to start reviewing what we do know is true and that list is so long of God’s promises for us. You are so wise! I thought your word-choice was just perfect that God is re-storying us — rewriting our stories AND restoring us — I just love that! So good to see your words here again. I think you’re striking a good balance (at least I hope it’s good for you too!) of giving yourself some space and still connecting with all of us who love you! xoxo

  4. Valerie! You are beck! Yay! I hope Rome was amazing. I am looking forward to reading your post in a bit! I so badly need to park here on the promises and things I know about God. I wander into worry so easily. If I could live in the truth of these promises what peace I could have! We are sad because Maggie, our dog has cancer- (we found out the day after I wrote this) Anyway we will have to put her down soon. 😦 Thankful for the blessing she as been. I hope you are getting over jet lag and adjusting back to life here easily! with much love and hugs

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