Coffee for Your Heart- I’ve Decided

Tulip garden 2

I’ve Decided

By Susie Teramura

 

I’ve decided

That indecision

Is not the best

Place to be,

 

It’s an

On the fence,

Wishy-washy place

Where I find myself often,

In matters from

Where to park and

What toothpaste to buy,

To You,

And whether or not,

You are really good,

And if what You say is true.

 

I takes time,

And lots of thinking,

To make the decision,

To move,

To decide,

To be all in,

To take the risk,

And let the choice wear my name,

 

Opening myself

To the chance

Of making a mistake,

To fail.

 

Tonight, I am thinking,

And wondering,

With You

About this word, fail,

 

Meaning, “to fall short

Of what’s expected

Or desired,

To become deficient

Or lacking.”

 

But it’s this definition

That gets me the most:

“To prove of no use,”

Perhaps this is

The core,

Challenging my value,

And evidence that

What I am afraid of

Might be true,

Exposing my heart’s fear.

 

But then I look at You,

And you show me

A whole different

View.

 

Through blood, sweat, and tears

You have brought me near,

Not because

I made right choices,

And did right things,

But simple because

I’m yours.

 

You say,

I am the apple of Your eye,

And Your delight,

And the evidence

Is in the scars,

The carrying of the cross,

And the staying there,

Until it was finished.

Making a way for me,

To be with You forever.

 

So now I find myself

With another decision

To make,

To stake my life on,

To choose each day,

Am I going to believe

What You say?

Am I all in?

Or Am I choosing

Indecision again?

 

So today,

I’ve decided,

I’m choosing, You.

Clinging to Your word,

And believing it’s true,

And in the parts

I don’t understand

I will take hold

of your strong hand

And all of You

There I find

You holding me too.

 

Good-bye indecision,

And fence sitting

too,

I made my choice.

 Jesus, I’m choosing You.

 

Psalm 119:30

I have chosen the way of faithfulness; I have set my heart on your laws.

 

Deuteronomy 30:19

This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

 

Joshua 24:15

But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.”

12 thoughts on “Coffee for Your Heart- I’ve Decided

  1. Oh Susie, your flower art is beautiful! (You would have LOVED the art and faith retreat — you should consider it in the future! :)) I can so relate with your feelings about opening yourself to the possibility of failing, but what freedom there is when we push it aside and do whatever we fear anyway! Only Christ’s strength can help me do this but you’ve discovered a beautiful truth that when you choose him and cling to his word, you find peace and joy you could never have dreamed of! Susie, I loved having you along with me on my Italy journey via Instagram — thanks for accompanying me, friend! xoxo

    1. Valerie- so glad you are back safely and had a wonderful time! It looked so beautiful! Thank you for sharing your trip with us all- I am glad you can relate to my feelings and love the words you shared here. Grateful for your thoughts and encouragement! 🙂 with much love

  2. This poem brings tears to my eyes, Susie. Thank you for reminding me that it’s not about doing right things, but it’s because we are His. “And in the parts I don’t understand I will take hold of your strong hand…” I needed this reminder today that I don’t need to understand everything. I just need to hold His hand. You have encouraged my heart today. Hugs!

  3. Trudi- I am so glad that the Lord spoke to your heart through this today!!!( an answer to my prayers) I find that there is so much I don’t understand and am learning to be ok with it as long as I know who holds me and can believe that He is good. Knowing that I am His somehow feels safe to me?! I like that 🙂 and need to be reassured of that a lot.- sending much love and hugs to you tonight trudi! You are so very loved!

  4. This is such a beautiful poem. When your words turned toward God and His decision to save us all, I was touched deeply. Blessed to be visiting you from #DanceWithJesus

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