Coffee for Your Heart- Bedtime

LAC Unit 3- Italian Countryside-1

Bedtime

By Susie Teramura

 

I am sitting here

And she is stalling again,

Talking about mosquito bites

And puss,

And what it’s made out of

And every question she can come up with,

To keep me talking

To keep me connected

To keep the conversation going

Her eyes are tired,

And her body wiggly

And once again,

A cup of water,

One more hug,

The fight to stay awake

To not miss one bit

Of life and all that might

Go on while she sleeps.

 

And I think ,

And talk with You

About that- about life,

And why as the years pile up

The living seems stale

And the resting from it

Is what I long for,

And sadness crawls in,

As I know it shouldn’t

Be this way.

That you gave me life

And breath today

Each day, a gift from you.

Each day has a treasure

All its own,

An opportunity

To know you in it

 

And so the hunger

Begins to stir

Father, how desperately

I want You,

All of You,

And all the life,

Each day connected

To You, Father

Abiding in the vine,

Bearing fruit juicy,

Satisfying to the soul,

Oh how I want that ,

And how I want

To be with You

In this mess of a life

Experiencing more of

You in it.

 

You are the one who

Awakens my soul,

That quenches my thirst,

The one who gives me rest,

A different kind of rest

One that I am really craving,

From the striving,

From the working

To be perfect

And having things

Turn out all right

Because in You everything is

All- right.

 

Sins erased,

We are connected

Forever,

And so I don’t have to

Keep the conversation going

To know you are here,

The quiet holds you too

And she finally gives in

With one last sigh and

A “mommy I love you,”

Rest enters this room.

We are loved,

And cared for,

Chosen

And seen forever,

And it’s from this place,

Safe and free

You breathe Your

Beautiful life into me.

 

 

John 15:9

“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.

 

John 15:6

 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last..”

 

Isaiah 25:9

In that day they will say, “Surely this is our God; we trusted in him, and he saved us. This is the Lord, we trusted in him; let us rejoice and be glad in his salvation.”

 

Psalm 118:5-6

“When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord;

he brought me into a spacious place.

The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.”

 

Acts 2:28

“You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.”

6 thoughts on “Coffee for Your Heart- Bedtime

  1. Susie,
    Even though it must be frustrating, I think it’s beautiful that your little one wants to hold onto the precious moments with you before falling asleep. She doesn’t want to miss a thing! I don’t long for rest like a mother does (I don’t have kids) but I long for other kinds of rest — rest from work, rest from stress in friendships and rest from all that swirls around me — and only God can give me the rest I so crave, when I find it in him. Your words that we are loved, cared for and chosen speak right to my heart today! Love this! xoxo

    1. Valerie- so nice to connect with you and hear your good thoughts today- Yes I am finding the things I think I want are not what I really want you know?! So glad our heavenly father knows best- wish I could trust Him easier! Thanks so much for your words-Thankful for you- sending hugs and love tonight!

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